۱۳۸۶ خرداد ۲۵, جمعه

confession

I am becoming materialist, the type I used to criticize a lot; and this is happening injudiciously, hastily and unrestrained.

I can see the changes in and out. The signs were everywhere surrounding me, leaving almost no room to the other side of my soul’s coin.

The hit was hot today. I caught myself packing for the trip; plugging in all sorts of electronics gadgets I have. Sadly to say there were not enough plugs for all these toys: two digital cameras, one camcorder, two mobile phones, and two laptops.

I can remember myself having preferred Red Crescent Camp to Hotel Vancouver, being free, being human, ready and packed to farewell this world. Now I observe myself not only enjoying but also sharing the sentiment with someone else after staying in a deluxe suite.

These are the signs, obviously trying the hammer the point that the guy I used to know is no more alive. I am starting to enjoy luxury, at the climax of my age, when human is delegated prophecy.

I am not saying this is good, this is bad. This is me.. who I am becoming now. Still hope that, same as before, this could be translated as a transition period in my life cycle.

Behind all, the horizon is calling me; the fundamental question is still there: who you want to be? If you made your choice, then taking the steps requires courage, self-regard, integrity and assertiveness

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ah گفت...

so many electronic stuffs, I am poor in need of a good fotography camera, help me buy a one :D

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Both sides of the coin is YOU! Perhaps you never paid attention to it before? Even now, you can go back to the other side of your soul. But never forget: - both of them exist, -don’t paying attention to one doesn’t mean the other one would be eliminated.
Try to keep the balance – YOUR balance – between them!